“I am here for a purpose and that purpose is to grow into a mountain, not to shrink to a grain of sand. Henceforth will I apply ALL my efforts to become the highest mountain of all and I will strain my potential until it cries for mercy. “
After a lot of careful consideration and back and forth, I have officially come out. Not in the Lady Gaga themed gay pride sense (although I did think the youtube video was pretty awesome- I could only wish to be that fabulous). Rather, I have opened up about my blog to my coworkers and Facebook friends. Initially, when I started this blog, I had intended on keeping it to myself. I wanted to provide a voice for those victims who were unable to speak up for themselves and let them know they are not alone. I also wanted to help raise awareness about domestic violence. While I was open with many of my coworkers about what I had been through, I found the topic of domestic abuse tends to make people uncomfortable. Several of them knew that I had started a blog, but I had never offered to let any of them read it. The only people in my life who had read The Running Thriver up til now were a few close family members and friends.
However, as I have gotten more involved in the fight against domestic abuse- especially with the launching of the Running for the Color Purple Campaign- I have felt that sharing my blog is the right thing to do. If I can’t be completely open about this big part of my life and educate the people I interact with on a daily basis than 1) how can I expect to educate anyone else, and 2) how can I encourage other victims to speak up and not be ashamed? While I am not at all embarrassed about what I have been through, I have been a little reluctant to “spring” this information on people- in particular Adam’s family and friends.
At the end of the day, though, I care more about speaking up and raising awareness than I do about not bringing attention to myself. Plus, I would have found it difficult to ask so many people to donate to this cause without explaining why it is so important to me.
In other news, I bought my first pair of non-vibram running shoes in a LONG TIME. With the Diva Half and Hartford Marathon being on pavement, and my continued difficulty getting accustomed to running on pavement in my Vibrams, I figured it might be wise to hold off on a barefoot marathon for a while longer. Adam helped me pick out a pair with more cushioning in the toe box so they would be more comfortable for my new running style. I also got my first pair of real running socks and some pink gloves (on clearance!) for when the weather gets cooler. One week until the Diva Half and less than 3 until the Hartford Marathon!!!