Still Reeling

“You are never given a wish without also being given the power to make it come true.

You may have to work for it, however.”

Richard David Bach

I am still in disbelief .  I just can’t wrap my mind around the fact that I ran 8 minute miles for over 7 miles and finished my first half marathon in just over 2 hours!  I have a hard time believing my body did that– and yet I was there doing it.  It’s a very surreal feeling even 3 days later.

Truthfully, I had no idea what kind of pace I would be capable of because all my training runs were with a weighted pack, on trails, and usually pretty hilly.  My fastest run on pavement had been 10 miles in 2 hours, but this was a whole 5 K more in almost the same time!

For anyone convincing yourself that you are not capable of running, I’d invite you to take a look back at my first post; and then come back to read this.  I am not an athlete.  I’m not a naturally gifted runner.  I am clumsy, awkward, and uncoordinated- but I ran 13.1 miles in 2:06!  If I can do it, I guarantee you that anyone can.

What I did– and do– have in my favor is that I am willing to work hard.  I will push myself as far as needed to reach a goal (and frequently probably a little farther than needed…)  It is such an AMAZING feeling when that hard work finally pays off!  I started training in the spring, and many months later I am seeing my dreams come to fruition.  It’s more than I expected.

What’s more, it’s not just the running.  It’s the work I’ve been putting into this blog, advocating for domestic violence, and creating a more fulfilling life for myself.  When I started this blog, I didn’t have a clear idea of where it would take me.  Now, I have a clear purpose for writing and running.  It’s not about  healing myself anymore- it’s about healing other women and victims of abuse.  As passionate as I am about running- and as much as I love it- I am MORE PASSIONATE about this cause.  That is why I am willing to put myself out there.  I have a potential  interview with a local newspaper this week to talk about the Running for the Color Purple Campaign, and with Susan Omilian’s help, there may be more publicity to follow.  Normally, I would shy away from drawing any kind of attention to myself, but it’s really not about me anymore.  My story is no different from any other women who has been through abuse.  If I am truly committed to raising awareness, funds, and fight the stigma associated with abuse, then I need to be willing to do whatever I can to make it happen.  I am a woman on a mission.  I believe one person can make a difference, and I am doing my best to do just that!

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8 comments

  1. Oh, my gosh. Thanks so much for this post. It just made something real for me. I nearly cried. That’s nutty, right? Excuse me, I’m going through something weird that I haven’t put a name on yet. I JUST got my Bikilas two Sundays ago. I’ve run in them twice. I’m ready to do my couch to 5k training. I’m down one cycling supporter, but still plan to push. Allll by myself. I hope I can run a half marathon in anything near 2 hours at some point in life. Haha. How long have you been at it?
    I’m starting a running blog soon, to track my progress, and my feelings about it. Hoping it’ll be a successful journey, and help someone else on their way to the same place. Thanks again!

    1. I don’t think you’re nuts at all! I get very emotional when it comes to running. It’s my metaphor for life. If I’m doing well with my runs, I feel like I can do anything. I have been training in my vibrams since the spring (March I think). I started running 10Ks in them and worked up from there. If I can do you, trust me- you can too. I can’t wait to read your running blog. I think what you’re doing is terrific! Keep it up!!!

      Just be warned- it gets addictive!

  2. That feeling – where you can’t believe what you did – is the best. Its what I’m chasing after running all these races – the feeling where you are totally surprised with yourself. I’m hoping I surprise myself in November.

    Congrats to you!

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