“If we had no winter; the spring would not be so pleasant; if we did not sometimes taste adversity, prosperity would not be so welcome.”¬†
-Anne Bradstreet

That's how we roll at boot camp ūüėČ

How could anyone not feel grateful to be alive when it’s 75 degrees out and the sun is shining? ¬† ¬†Granted, we have had an unseasonably mild winter up here in the north east, but it hasn’t made me look forward to the beautiful spring weather any less! I mean, who doesn’t¬†feel happy at the first signs of spring? ¬†I for one can’t wait to get outside more!

I spent this morning cleaning the house and catching up on chores…like finally trucking over to the grocery store to buy some healthy food (I was delighted to have my sunroof open on the drive!). ¬†I was also delighted at just how many heavy bags of groceries I am able to juggle now- thanks to all my kick ass workouts. ¬†Pretty soon I won’t even need that second trip to the car! ¬†I know, yet another awesome reason to hit the gym!

Speaking of which,I luckily managed to get my Insanity workout in early before I distracted with the typical daily chaos.  I especially wanted to make sure I got it done today because neither of my planned workouts panned out yesterday.  In truth, though, I think I really needed the rest.  I have been dragging a bit and have been more sore than usual, which was part of my motivation to go get some healthy eats.

I decided to celebrate the gorgeous day by making some fresh guacamole for lunch…YUM! It’s always a plus when something tastes good AND is good for you. ¬†Of course the fact that I ate way too much was probably NOT good for me, but great eating habits has never been a strong suit of mine. ¬†What can I say; I’m a work in progress.

Tonight I’m looking forward to some more boot camp!!! I’ve been trying to convince Mike to let us have our session outside tonight- on account of the fabulous weather– but he has yet to cave. ¬†It might have to do with us acting like 5 years at our last outdoor session. ¬†We basically had a hard time paying attention because of all the excitement of “playing” outside. ¬†(There were a lot of punishment exercises involved…) It was still a great time though! (at least for us…maybe not so much for Mike) ¬†My favorite part was tire flipping, although the obstacle course Mike constructed was also fun. ūüėČ

That is all for now! ¬† It’s way to nice out to spend any longer on the computer!

I hope everyone is enjoying the day!!!!!

Kreativ Blogger Award

“I feel a very unusual sensation – if it is not indigestion, I think it must be gratitude.”

~ Benjamin Disraeli

In a surprising twist of fate, I have kindly been nominated for the Kreativ Blogger Award by Momarock, a fellow female runner and bad ass. ¬†Be sure to stop by her blog and say hi. ūüôā

I would like to truly thank Momarock not only for the nomination, but also her excellent blog which I thoroughly enjoy reading.  After all, we all know what a fan I am of other women who enjoy running and kicking ass.

As with every nomination, there are some rules which are as follows:

  1. You must thank the person who has given you the award. (check)
  2. Copy the logo and place it on your blog. (check)
  3. Link the person who has nominated you for the award. (check)
  4. Name 7 things about yourself that people might find interesting.
  5. Nominate 7 other Kreativ Bloggers.
  6. Post links to the 7 blogs you nominate.
  7. Leave a comment on each of the blogs to let them know they have been nominated.

Ok 7 things about myself:

1) I have developed a strange adult onset phobia of bicycle riding which I fully intend to get over so I can eventually compete in a triathlon. ¬†I never remember being up that high in the air as a child! (I also need to learn to swim properly, but having one out of 3 down isn’t bad, right?)

2) I LOVE shoes, but hate wearing them.  In fact, if I could walk around barefoot all day, I would.

3)  I have lived in the state of CT my whole life.  Never even left for college.

4) I have made up for never living outside of CT by traveling. ¬†So far I have been to the Philippines, Ecuador, Bermuda, Mexico, Barbados, Dominica, St. Thomas, Ireland, Puerto Rico, Egypt (and yes, I rode a camel) and Aruba… I have also traveled a bit around the US.

5) If I could live anywhere else in the US, I’d pick Colorado.

6)  I have studied Spanish, French, Italian, and Latin, but the only language I can speak fluently is English.

7)  If I had to choose a different career I would either be a personal trainer or a life coach.

Okay, now for the fun part! Nominations!!!!

There are so many great blogs I follow. ¬†It’s definitely hard to choose!!!! ¬†Since I have had the honor of nominating some of my blog buddies for other awards in the past, I tried to pick some of the newer blogs I’ve been following.

In no particular order:

1) Soles of a Mom– I find this blog to be full of positive energy and always find something inspiring to read.

2) The Everyday Warrior– Why? Because she’s AWESOME!!!! and someone I can totally relate to. ¬†She is also running a Tough Mudder and raising money for the Wounded Warrior Project, so head over there and show her some support!

3) Fabulous 50’s– Because she truly is FABULOUS and so is her blog. ¬†I especially love her travel photos!!!!

4) Feminist Figure Girl- What can I say? I’m a feminist at heart. ¬†This blog is totally worth reading.

5) Conchsaladesque- This lady has been through some recent heartache, but continues to face each day with strength and gratitude.  Her posts are always thoughtful and insightful.

6) Manbicep– All I can say is you have to read it.

7)  Run. Dog. Cat. Me.- If for no other reason (and there are others) then because this post totally cracked me up.

Holy Hip Flexors!

“I’m smiling because I love it.”

Shaun T.

Story of my life!

Holy shoulders! Holy hurt!

The good news is month one of Insanity is done. ¬†The bad news is (and let’s be truthful- no one is actually surprised here) “RECOVERY” week has started, and there are still level 1 drills (BOOOO!). ¬†My trainer had warned me that the recovery week was no joke. ¬†It was filled with a lot of torture as promised, but still totally doable.

To be honest, I was really looking forward to the new workout this morning for 2 reasons. 1) I was getting REALLY BORED with repeating the other workouts day in and out (now I get the same one for another 5 days straight…wooohooo!). 2) I needed the stretching after hitting the gym yesterday.

It won't kill you. I promise. No one has ever died of pain.

Plus, I as much as I hate it at times (like when I’m doing it)- I still LOVE IT (yes, even the level 1 drills). ¬†It’s the best substitute I have for missing boot camp, and even if it isn’t quite as challenging as the the torture Mike inflicts, it’s still a really good workout and a great way to start the day.

The other bad news is I am not as 100% as I originally thought yesterday. lol ¬†Our group training session totally kicked my butt, and it wasn’t even that hard. ¬†Not that it wasn’t hard, but there were a few exercises I don’t normally struggle with that were really difficult for me. ¬†For example, usually on ball-to-wall (you squat and then throw a medicine ball up at the wall and repeat) I use the heavy ball and crank them out, but last night I had a lighter one and I still felt fatigued. ¬†I even struggled with the jump rope!

Damn straight!

Admittedly, doing Insanity in the morning, and lifting to train for my pull-ups immediately beforehand probably affected my performance some; but I was dragging WAY MORE than usual. ¬†I hate that feeling- especially because I know it means I should probably back off some until I really am back at 100%. ¬†On a side note I still totally kicked ass on the box jumps and killed my previous PR on the tall box. ūüôā

I don’t know why I am so impatient when it comes to exercise. ¬†I hate when I don’t feel like I’m making progress, even maintaining isn’t enough for me. ¬†I have this little fire burning inside that is always driving me to push harder, get stronger, jump higher, move faster, and conquer the next challenge. ¬†Why? Because making those strides is empowering and the feeling is addictive. ¬†I honestly don’t care as much about my physical appearance as I do about ability. ¬†When I demolish a hard workout, I truly feel like I can do anything. ¬†It is the best high there is- completely intoxicating. ¬†It also an amazing outlet and the most effective treatment for my anxiety/PTSD I’ve found yet.

I don’t expect everyone to understand my relationship with fitness. ¬†In fact, most people won’t, and that’s okay with me. ¬†I have my boot camp family and enough people in my life who get it not to be concerned with the ones who don’t. ūüôā

Don’t ever let anyone tell you that you can’t do something or stand in the way of your dreams. ¬†If something is important to you, just go for it and forget what anyone else has to say about it. ¬†The only person who can ever stand in your way is you. ¬†You are as unstoppable as you choose to be. ¬†Go out and conquer your goals- whether it’s a marathon or a jog around the block. ¬†Everyone has to start somewhere. ¬†If you commit and believe, you WILL SUCCEED.

Another great one from Motivation,Hope,Strength. Be sure to check out their Facebook page!

If You’re Happy and You Know It…

“Think big, believe big, act big, and the results will be big.”

Raise your hand! ūüôā

I bet you can guess why I’m so happy today! ¬†That’s right!!! I got to workout this morning!!! I was pushing hard, exploding with power, and jumping leaping all the way through the LAST Insanity workout of month onewithout feeling like I was going to die. BONUS!!! ¬†Okay, maybe not through the WHOLE thing, but that’s only cause basketball/level 1 drills suck royally. ¬†(I was extremely grateful to say goodbye to that specific workout of month 1 ;))

Anyway, the good news is my body cooperated. ¬†I’m so glad we are finally on the same page again. ¬†This makes me feel completely prepared to go to the group training session today. ¬†It has been WAY TOO LONG since I’ve had a tough workout with Mike and my boot camp peeps. ¬†I was completely bummed to miss SNOW DAY boot camp Wednesday night, but I knew it wasn’t a good idea when I actually had to pause the Insanity workout and dragged my way through it that morning. However, now that I’m all mended I am totally ready to ROCK IT tonight.

I have been withdrawing from exercise BIG TIME! I HATE when I can’t workout. ¬†My eye was twitching the ENTIRE time I was sick. ¬†I had no alternative form of stress reduction. ¬†Alright, I admit I cheated a little and did some pull-up training on occasion. ¬†This morning, though, for the first time in several days I was FINALLY able to work out at full capacity, and voila!¬†Eye twitch extinguished!

I’m not sure what Mike has in store for us tonight, but I AM READY!!!! I think I may even see how high I can jump next to the tall box with the small one on top of it since I am completely determined to get up there at some point! ūüôā

Happy Friday Everyone!!!! I hope you get your weekend started right!

Dear Mr. “X”

“I am Woman. Hear me Roar”

I am sorry about the profanity, but the censored version wouldn’t load

Dear Mr. “X”,

I don’t know you, but I know I don’t like you. ¬†I have a serious problem with the way you’re treating my friend. ¬†You may think you can break her, but you have truly underestimated the woman you’re dealing with. ¬†Maybe it’s because you never took the time to love or know her as a husband should. ¬†Let me just enlighten you, that girl has more strength and character in her little toe than you’ll ever have in your life. ¬†Tell me, exactly what kind of man spends his time trying to tear down the mother of his child? ¬†What kind of miserable person wastes his own life trying to destroy someone else’s?

You may think you can convince the world with your lying and manipulation, but I am on to your games. ¬†You abusers all study from the same handbook; not one of you ever has anything original to say. ¬†You spend your time telling your target she is crazy, unlovable, selfish, unattractive, and a terrible mother. ¬†The list goes on and on. ¬†You try to convince her she’s isolated and cut off her support system. ¬†You make her feel like her problems are a burden to other people. ¬†You attempt to tear everything that makes her happy out of her life. You know how to play the victim card, how to fein concern, and how to strike for the jugular once her guard is down. This time, however, in your case, it isn’t going to work.

You won’t convince her she’s crazy because she has too many people who care about her to show her the truth. ¬†Plus, thanks to your insistence on having her head examined she now a psychologist to back up the fact that YOU-¬†NOT HER¬†are the problem. ¬†YOU are the crazy one. ¬†YOU are the weak one. ¬†YOU¬†are the one who needs therapy. ¬†Strong men don’t chip away other peoples’ self esteem. ¬†Cowards lacking any self esteem of their own do… BULLIES do. ¬†You are a coward and a bully, and I can’t stand either.¬†

You won’t convince her she is unlovable because I LOVE HER, and I tell her everyday. ¬†I will continue to tell her everyday until she’s tired of hearing it. ¬†That girl is like a sister to me. ¬†I know exactly what she is going through. ¬†I know WHAT YOU ARE PUTTING HER THROUGH. ¬†For every insult you utter in her direction I will offer 100 words of encouragement. ¬†THAT is kind of treatment she deserves. ¬†Guess what else… I’m not the only one behind her. ¬†She has a MULTITUDE of people who genuinely love her without conditions or criticism- a kind of love you can’t comprehend. ¬†We will continue to love her no matter what you do.

You may try to convince both her and yourself of how worthless she is, but everyone who meets her loves her. ¬†She has a gift for touching people. ¬†She is capable of compassion you’ll never understand. ¬†She is not someone you meet and forget. ¬†That girl has star quality, and she SHINES IN SPITE OF YOU. ¬†She is handling the most difficult situations (that’s right- plural) a person can face in her life- ¬†ALL AT THE SAME TIME and still manages each day with more strength, determination, grace, and optimism than you could ever imagine. ¬†You ARE TOO BLIND TO SEE IT. ¬†That girl is NEVER bitter. ¬†If there was ever a person who had a right to be angry at the world it is her, but instead she is CARING, GIVING, and LOVING. ¬†THAT IS WHY WE LOVE HER. ¬†That is why we ADMIRE her. ¬†She may think we lift her up, but it is she who lifts us up on a regular basis.

That is NOT the behavior of a selfish person. ¬†She doesn’t have a mean or selfish bone in her body. ¬†Making her health a priority is not selfish. ¬†Going after her goals in life is not selfish. ¬†Wanting to be the best person she can be, to be the best mom she can be is not selfish. ¬†HOW DARE YOU TRY TO MANIPULATE HER INTO FEELING GUILTY FOR TRYING TO BE HAPPY. ¬†It’s bad enough that you are completely incapable of being EVEN REMOTELY SUPPORTIVE. ¬†To be MEAN and SPITEFUL enough to call a woman a bad mother FOR EXERCISING and EATING HEALTHY is down right inexcusable. ¬†What gives you the right, please tell me? ¬†Are you so threatened that you can’t stand the sight of her getting stronger? ¬†Are you so demasculinated by the fact THAT SHE CAN NOT ONLY SURVIVE WITHOUT YOU, BUT BE HAPPIER WITHOUT YOU that you have to threaten to take away the one thing that matters to her most? ¬†You need to attempt to take her child from her simply to get even and make her miserable? ¬†A child you don’t even have the slightest idea how to care for, seriously? ¬†The fact that you would even consider tearing your daughter away from the person who loves her most, that she is most closely bonded to proves in itself what a flat out TERRIBLE PARENT YOU ARE.

That is the mother of your child and SHE DESERVES YOUR RESPECT. ¬†She is a beautiful person inside and out. ¬†You were LUCKY to have ever gotten her at all.¬†You knew she was too good for you and were afraid of her realizing it, so you tried to tear her down to your level. ¬†But it didn’t work because despite all the garbage you tried to fill her head with, that girl still knows her self worth. ¬†Even if she doesn’t believe it 100% to the core yet, she will. ¬†You’re hold over her gets weaker everyday as she makes further steps to improve her life. ¬†She went and got healthy and it pissed you off. ¬†How dare she be happy when she has so much to fall apart over. ¬†I’m sure it just eats away at someone like you who could have the world on a plate and still manage to be miserable.

You can’t cut off her support system or keep her from the people who care about her. ¬†WE WON’T LET YOU. ¬†There are too many of us who love her way too much to ever let you get in the way. ¬†You have grossly underestimated your ability to control her. ¬†You can’t manipulate everyone into seeing her in the twisted light you do. ¬†We aren’t blind. ¬†We can see her for who she truly is. ¬†It’s too bad you are too busy seeing your own flaws in her to appreciate it yourself. ¬†While you’re still finding reasons to blame others for your problems, THAT GIRL IS GOING TO CONQUER THE WORLD. ¬†She will succeed IN SPITE OF YOU and BE STRONGER FOR HAVING GONE THROUGH IT. ¬†You just keep it coming because it’s all fuel to keep her pushing forward toward success and happiness. ¬†It won’t be long before she leaves you in the dust.



PS. These shirts are actually available for purchase. I just may get her one!

Remember the Time…

“Running is a big question mark that’s there each and every day. It asks you, ‘Are you going to be a wimp or are you going to be strong today?'”¬†
– Peter Maher, Canadian marathon runner

(maybe I should have been a wimp…)

I am sick and tired of being sick and tired!

When I ran a really hilly, windy half marathon with a stomach bug and got dehydrated… and likely gave myself ischemic colitis? ¬†Yeah, that totally sucked. ¬†(Not the running, the getting sick part…just to clarify) It sucks even more now because yesterday I felt fine. ¬†In fact, I felt great. ¬†I felt so great I did two Insanity workouts and then spent a couple hours at the climbing gym where I was either climbing or belaying pretty much the entire time…

I did drink lots of water, but apparently not enough cause last last I woke up in pain… again. ¬†It wasn’t as intense as Saturday, but it was enough to keep me up all night. ¬†When I dragged myself in to work this morning, they pretty much turned me around and sent me home where I have been drinking fluids, fluids, and more fluids ever since. ¬†

They were very kind to offer me some IV fluid before I left, but I told them I could manage to drink on my own. ¬†So, now I’m home “sick”- except I feel more exhausted and frustrated than sick. ¬†I did take a nap, which helped with the sleep deprivation, but I am super annoyed about not being able to work out. ūüė¶ ¬†I am also not happy about missing work... but more the working out. ¬†I have been having some sharp, crampy abdominal pain on and off…mostly after eating, so I have been pretty much trying to avoid food and just drink liquids instead.

Initially, I had hoped to use some vacation time at work today to get out in time for boot camp, but instead I will be home all day with no exercise allowed. Total bummer!


I guess I should have listened¬†better to my body on Saturday, but I honestly didn’t feel that bad. ¬†I’ve been either getting or getting over something all winter, so I didn’t think much of the symptoms. ¬†When I had all that pain while I was running, I really wasn’t sure what it was from. ¬†I thought maybe all the uphill running was making my abs hurt and the nausea is not that unusual for me when I’m pushing hard. ¬†When I finished and got really sick, I figured I was probably dehydrated and may have developed some ischemia. ¬†However, I NEVER would have imagined I’d still be having issues 2 days later.

The only thing I can do now and take it easy and wait it out… and be smarter next time! ¬†In the future I will definitely be doing a better job of hydrating myself before race days (instead of drinking caffeine all day to stay awake at work…). ¬†Also, I think I’ll seriously consider bringing my hydration pack on any future half with only 3 water stations. ¬†Aside from the Tough Mudder, I can’t ever remember being that thirsty on a run! ¬†I would rather carry a little extra weight than run this risk of getting dehydrated again.

The good news is being home sick has given me a chance to catch up on my blogging, and blog reading! ¬†Plus, I know know I’ll be back to kicking butt (my own that is) in no time. ¬†I have a whole list of goals now and I am ready to get at them- body permitting.

I totally need to make one of these!!!

Colchester Half Recap

“In running, it doesn’t matter whether you come in first, in the middle of the pack, or last. You can say, ‘I have finished.’ There is a lot of satisfaction in that.”¬†
-Fred Lebow, New York City Marathon co-founder

Yesterday I ran my second “official” half marathon in Colchester. ¬†I have run the distance several times now, but this race was special because it was a first half for a kick ass,¬†amazing friend¬†of mine. ¬†The course was absolutely BRUTAL. It was hills, hills, and more hills. ¬†Steep hills, gradual hills, never-ending hills… ¬†Plus, the wind gusts were up to 50 mph, which is super fun when you’re running up hill into it. ¬†I felt a little guilty for recommending she try it after realizing how tough it was, but she is a boot camper so I knew she could handle it- no matter how tough.

"You train to look good. We train to kick ass."

Our morning started with an uplifting visit from one of our fellow boot campers (Superwoman Kelly) with PRESENTS! ¬†Who doesn’t like surprise presents? Especially when they are awesome “We train to kick ass” t-shirts from your trainer! ¬†I think that definitely helped to get us pumped! ¬†All the support from our boot camp peeps was almost overwhelming.

Despite the less than stellar conditions and brutal hills, we all managed to survive- a HUGE achievement in my book!  I had been feeling pretty crummy the day before and continued to have stomach issues the morning of, but I figured it was just nerves.  However, as the race progressed I realized my stomach pain and nausea were actually getting worse and not better. I literally ran as fast as I could without vomiting.  I had NEVER experienced pain like that on a run before.  I tried to convince myself I was not sick pretty much the entire time, but once the race was over and we got home, I spent a good part of the afternoon curled up in the bathroom or doubled over in pain.  I think it was probably a combination of factors including: GI bug circulating at work, dehydration due to stomach bug and exercise, and running a little harder than I probably should have.  

As of this morning I was still having pain anytime I ate, but it seems to finally be resolving. I did still manage to get through two Insanity workouts this morning and then hit the climbing gym this afternoon with Adam and one of his friends. ¬†I thought the climbing might be a little rough after being sick..¬†and¬†the half, and the two morning workouts…¬†but it actually felt pretty good and turned out to be a lot of fun. ¬†Plus, I figured it would be good pull-up training!

While we were at the climbing gym, Adam accomplished his February boot camp goal of doing a handstand pushup. ¬†I found this particularly impressive since we had already done quite a bit of climbing. ¬†I figured it was worth a try but only managed to get down about an inch. ¬†For the record though, my handstand totally beat his- and I got into it all by myself. ūüėČ ¬†Anyway, it’s definitely something I’ll be adding to my to do list! – along with the pull-ups, a one handed pushup, and jumping on the tall box with the small box on it. ¬†The fact that Adam made it up on his second try and I’ve been diligently slaving at my goal for weeks makes me feel like maybe he didn’t pick something hard enough- that and his friend totally ratted him out that he used to do them “all the time” in the Marine Corps. ¬†jk- I’m totally proud of him.

 Overall, it was an awesome weekend.  I spent time with a lot of great people and got a lot of tough working out in too!  Adam and I even got to go out for some Hibachi after the half with some of our friends from boot camp which was a real treat!

Also, Adam’s friend gave me a lot of great tips on building the muscle groups for my pull-up and I am super psyched to try them out. ¬†I am still a little frustrated that I haven’t been able to do one, and, consequently, haven’t met my February goal. ¬†However, I have helped several other people conquer their goals and that is equally rewarding. ¬†I’m sure I will get my chance too, but until then I will keep busting my tail to get it done!

In the meantime, I can celebrate the victories of my boot camp buddies, including my friend Melissa who annihilated her February goal and rocked out the half yesterday in 2:14. (Her lofty time goal was 2:15- not too shabby!)  I finished only a couple minutes ahead of her and Adam (not surprisingly) smoked us both.  Our friend Jamie also ran with us and KILLED IT despite not feeling great while running.  It was such a great experience to race with all of them!!!

I hope everyone had an excellent weekend!!!