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If You’re Happy and You Know It…

“Think big, believe big, act big, and the results will be big.”

Raise your hand! ūüôā

I bet you can guess why I’m so happy today! ¬†That’s right!!! I got to workout this morning!!! I was pushing hard, exploding with power, and jumping leaping all the way through the LAST Insanity workout of month onewithout feeling like I was going to die. BONUS!!! ¬†Okay, maybe not through the WHOLE thing, but that’s only cause basketball/level 1 drills suck royally. ¬†(I was extremely grateful to say goodbye to that specific workout of month 1 ;))

Anyway, the good news is my body cooperated. ¬†I’m so glad we are finally on the same page again. ¬†This makes me feel completely prepared to go to the group training session today. ¬†It has been WAY TOO LONG since I’ve had a tough workout with Mike and my boot camp peeps. ¬†I was completely bummed to miss SNOW DAY boot camp Wednesday night, but I knew it wasn’t a good idea when I actually had to pause the Insanity workout and dragged my way through it that morning. However, now that I’m all mended I am totally ready to ROCK IT tonight.

I have been withdrawing from exercise BIG TIME! I HATE when I can’t workout. ¬†My eye was twitching the ENTIRE time I was sick. ¬†I had no alternative form of stress reduction. ¬†Alright, I admit I cheated a little and did some pull-up training on occasion. ¬†This morning, though, for the first time in several days I was FINALLY able to work out at full capacity, and voila!¬†Eye twitch extinguished!

I’m not sure what Mike has in store for us tonight, but I AM READY!!!! I think I may even see how high I can jump next to the tall box with the small one on top of it since I am completely determined to get up there at some point! ūüôā

Happy Friday Everyone!!!! I hope you get your weekend started right!

Dear Mr. “X”

“I am Woman. Hear me Roar”

I am sorry about the profanity, but the censored version wouldn’t load

Dear Mr. “X”,

I don’t know you, but I know I don’t like you. ¬†I have a serious problem with the way you’re treating my friend. ¬†You may think you can break her, but you have truly underestimated the woman you’re dealing with. ¬†Maybe it’s because you never took the time to love or know her as a husband should. ¬†Let me just enlighten you, that girl has more strength and character in her little toe than you’ll ever have in your life. ¬†Tell me, exactly what kind of man spends his time trying to tear down the mother of his child? ¬†What kind of miserable person wastes his own life trying to destroy someone else’s?

You may think you can convince the world with your lying and manipulation, but I am on to your games. ¬†You abusers all study from the same handbook; not one of you ever has anything original to say. ¬†You spend your time telling your target she is crazy, unlovable, selfish, unattractive, and a terrible mother. ¬†The list goes on and on. ¬†You try to convince her she’s isolated and cut off her support system. ¬†You make her feel like her problems are a burden to other people. ¬†You attempt to tear everything that makes her happy out of her life. You know how to play the victim card, how to fein concern, and how to strike for the jugular once her guard is down. This time, however, in your case, it isn’t going to work.

You won’t convince her she’s crazy because she has too many people who care about her to show her the truth. ¬†Plus, thanks to your insistence on having her head examined she now a psychologist to back up the fact that YOU-¬†NOT HER¬†are the problem. ¬†YOU are the crazy one. ¬†YOU are the weak one. ¬†YOU¬†are the one who needs therapy. ¬†Strong men don’t chip away other peoples’ self esteem. ¬†Cowards lacking any self esteem of their own do… BULLIES do. ¬†You are a coward and a bully, and I can’t stand either.¬†

You won’t convince her she is unlovable because I LOVE HER, and I tell her everyday. ¬†I will continue to tell her everyday until she’s tired of hearing it. ¬†That girl is like a sister to me. ¬†I know exactly what she is going through. ¬†I know WHAT YOU ARE PUTTING HER THROUGH. ¬†For every insult you utter in her direction I will offer 100 words of encouragement. ¬†THAT is kind of treatment she deserves. ¬†Guess what else… I’m not the only one behind her. ¬†She has a MULTITUDE of people who genuinely love her without conditions or criticism- a kind of love you can’t comprehend. ¬†We will continue to love her no matter what you do.

You may try to convince both her and yourself of how worthless she is, but everyone who meets her loves her. ¬†She has a gift for touching people. ¬†She is capable of compassion you’ll never understand. ¬†She is not someone you meet and forget. ¬†That girl has star quality, and she SHINES IN SPITE OF YOU. ¬†She is handling the most difficult situations (that’s right- plural) a person can face in her life- ¬†ALL AT THE SAME TIME and still manages each day with more strength, determination, grace, and optimism than you could ever imagine. ¬†You ARE TOO BLIND TO SEE IT. ¬†That girl is NEVER bitter. ¬†If there was ever a person who had a right to be angry at the world it is her, but instead she is CARING, GIVING, and LOVING. ¬†THAT IS WHY WE LOVE HER. ¬†That is why we ADMIRE her. ¬†She may think we lift her up, but it is she who lifts us up on a regular basis.

That is NOT the behavior of a selfish person. ¬†She doesn’t have a mean or selfish bone in her body. ¬†Making her health a priority is not selfish. ¬†Going after her goals in life is not selfish. ¬†Wanting to be the best person she can be, to be the best mom she can be is not selfish. ¬†HOW DARE YOU TRY TO MANIPULATE HER INTO FEELING GUILTY FOR TRYING TO BE HAPPY. ¬†It’s bad enough that you are completely incapable of being EVEN REMOTELY SUPPORTIVE. ¬†To be MEAN and SPITEFUL enough to call a woman a bad mother FOR EXERCISING and EATING HEALTHY is down right inexcusable. ¬†What gives you the right, please tell me? ¬†Are you so threatened that you can’t stand the sight of her getting stronger? ¬†Are you so demasculinated by the fact THAT SHE CAN NOT ONLY SURVIVE WITHOUT YOU, BUT BE HAPPIER WITHOUT YOU that you have to threaten to take away the one thing that matters to her most? ¬†You need to attempt to take her child from her simply to get even and make her miserable? ¬†A child you don’t even have the slightest idea how to care for, seriously? ¬†The fact that you would even consider tearing your daughter away from the person who loves her most, that she is most closely bonded to proves in itself what a flat out TERRIBLE PARENT YOU ARE.

That is the mother of your child and SHE DESERVES YOUR RESPECT. ¬†She is a beautiful person inside and out. ¬†You were LUCKY to have ever gotten her at all.¬†You knew she was too good for you and were afraid of her realizing it, so you tried to tear her down to your level. ¬†But it didn’t work because despite all the garbage you tried to fill her head with, that girl still knows her self worth. ¬†Even if she doesn’t believe it 100% to the core yet, she will. ¬†You’re hold over her gets weaker everyday as she makes further steps to improve her life. ¬†She went and got healthy and it pissed you off. ¬†How dare she be happy when she has so much to fall apart over. ¬†I’m sure it just eats away at someone like you who could have the world on a plate and still manage to be miserable.

You can’t cut off her support system or keep her from the people who care about her. ¬†WE WON’T LET YOU. ¬†There are too many of us who love her way too much to ever let you get in the way. ¬†You have grossly underestimated your ability to control her. ¬†You can’t manipulate everyone into seeing her in the twisted light you do. ¬†We aren’t blind. ¬†We can see her for who she truly is. ¬†It’s too bad you are too busy seeing your own flaws in her to appreciate it yourself. ¬†While you’re still finding reasons to blame others for your problems, THAT GIRL IS GOING TO CONQUER THE WORLD. ¬†She will succeed IN SPITE OF YOU and BE STRONGER FOR HAVING GONE THROUGH IT. ¬†You just keep it coming because it’s all fuel to keep her pushing forward toward success and happiness. ¬†It won’t be long before she leaves you in the dust.

Sincerely,

Jenny

PS. These shirts are actually available for purchase. I just may get her one!

Remember the Time…

“Running is a big question mark that’s there each and every day. It asks you, ‘Are you going to be a wimp or are you going to be strong today?'”¬†
– Peter Maher, Canadian marathon runner

(maybe I should have been a wimp…)

I am sick and tired of being sick and tired!

When I ran a really hilly, windy half marathon with a stomach bug and got dehydrated… and likely gave myself ischemic colitis? ¬†Yeah, that totally sucked. ¬†(Not the running, the getting sick part…just to clarify) It sucks even more now because yesterday I felt fine. ¬†In fact, I felt great. ¬†I felt so great I did two Insanity workouts and then spent a couple hours at the climbing gym where I was either climbing or belaying pretty much the entire time…

I did drink lots of water, but apparently not enough cause last last I woke up in pain… again. ¬†It wasn’t as intense as Saturday, but it was enough to keep me up all night. ¬†When I dragged myself in to work this morning, they pretty much turned me around and sent me home where I have been drinking fluids, fluids, and more fluids ever since. ¬†

They were very kind to offer me some IV fluid before I left, but I told them I could manage to drink on my own. ¬†So, now I’m home “sick”- except I feel more exhausted and frustrated than sick. ¬†I did take a nap, which helped with the sleep deprivation, but I am super annoyed about not being able to work out. ūüė¶ ¬†I am also not happy about missing work... but more the working out. ¬†I have been having some sharp, crampy abdominal pain on and off…mostly after eating, so I have been pretty much trying to avoid food and just drink liquids instead.

Initially, I had hoped to use some vacation time at work today to get out in time for boot camp, but instead I will be home all day with no exercise allowed. Total bummer!

Boo!

I guess I should have listened¬†better to my body on Saturday, but I honestly didn’t feel that bad. ¬†I’ve been either getting or getting over something all winter, so I didn’t think much of the symptoms. ¬†When I had all that pain while I was running, I really wasn’t sure what it was from. ¬†I thought maybe all the uphill running was making my abs hurt and the nausea is not that unusual for me when I’m pushing hard. ¬†When I finished and got really sick, I figured I was probably dehydrated and may have developed some ischemia. ¬†However, I NEVER would have imagined I’d still be having issues 2 days later.

The only thing I can do now and take it easy and wait it out… and be smarter next time! ¬†In the future I will definitely be doing a better job of hydrating myself before race days (instead of drinking caffeine all day to stay awake at work…). ¬†Also, I think I’ll seriously consider bringing my hydration pack on any future half with only 3 water stations. ¬†Aside from the Tough Mudder, I can’t ever remember being that thirsty on a run! ¬†I would rather carry a little extra weight than run this risk of getting dehydrated again.

The good news is being home sick has given me a chance to catch up on my blogging, and blog reading! ¬†Plus, I know know I’ll be back to kicking butt (my own that is) in no time. ¬†I have a whole list of goals now and I am ready to get at them- body permitting.

I totally need to make one of these!!!

Colchester Half Recap

“In running, it doesn’t matter whether you come in first, in the middle of the pack, or last. You can say, ‘I have finished.’ There is a lot of satisfaction in that.”¬†
-Fred Lebow, New York City Marathon co-founder

Yesterday I ran my second “official” half marathon in Colchester. ¬†I have run the distance several times now, but this race was special because it was a first half for a kick ass,¬†amazing friend¬†of mine. ¬†The course was absolutely BRUTAL. It was hills, hills, and more hills. ¬†Steep hills, gradual hills, never-ending hills… ¬†Plus, the wind gusts were up to 50 mph, which is super fun when you’re running up hill into it. ¬†I felt a little guilty for recommending she try it after realizing how tough it was, but she is a boot camper so I knew she could handle it- no matter how tough.

"You train to look good. We train to kick ass."

Our morning started with an uplifting visit from one of our fellow boot campers (Superwoman Kelly) with PRESENTS! ¬†Who doesn’t like surprise presents? Especially when they are awesome “We train to kick ass” t-shirts from your trainer! ¬†I think that definitely helped to get us pumped! ¬†All the support from our boot camp peeps was almost overwhelming.

Despite the less than stellar conditions and brutal hills, we all managed to survive- a HUGE achievement in my book!  I had been feeling pretty crummy the day before and continued to have stomach issues the morning of, but I figured it was just nerves.  However, as the race progressed I realized my stomach pain and nausea were actually getting worse and not better. I literally ran as fast as I could without vomiting.  I had NEVER experienced pain like that on a run before.  I tried to convince myself I was not sick pretty much the entire time, but once the race was over and we got home, I spent a good part of the afternoon curled up in the bathroom or doubled over in pain.  I think it was probably a combination of factors including: GI bug circulating at work, dehydration due to stomach bug and exercise, and running a little harder than I probably should have.  

As of this morning I was still having pain anytime I ate, but it seems to finally be resolving. I did still manage to get through two Insanity workouts this morning and then hit the climbing gym this afternoon with Adam and one of his friends. ¬†I thought the climbing might be a little rough after being sick..¬†and¬†the half, and the two morning workouts…¬†but it actually felt pretty good and turned out to be a lot of fun. ¬†Plus, I figured it would be good pull-up training!

While we were at the climbing gym, Adam accomplished his February boot camp goal of doing a handstand pushup. ¬†I found this particularly impressive since we had already done quite a bit of climbing. ¬†I figured it was worth a try but only managed to get down about an inch. ¬†For the record though, my handstand totally beat his- and I got into it all by myself. ūüėČ ¬†Anyway, it’s definitely something I’ll be adding to my to do list! – along with the pull-ups, a one handed pushup, and jumping on the tall box with the small box on it. ¬†The fact that Adam made it up on his second try and I’ve been diligently slaving at my goal for weeks makes me feel like maybe he didn’t pick something hard enough- that and his friend totally ratted him out that he used to do them “all the time” in the Marine Corps. ¬†jk- I’m totally proud of him.

 Overall, it was an awesome weekend.  I spent time with a lot of great people and got a lot of tough working out in too!  Adam and I even got to go out for some Hibachi after the half with some of our friends from boot camp which was a real treat!

Also, Adam’s friend gave me a lot of great tips on building the muscle groups for my pull-up and I am super psyched to try them out. ¬†I am still a little frustrated that I haven’t been able to do one, and, consequently, haven’t met my February goal. ¬†However, I have helped several other people conquer their goals and that is equally rewarding. ¬†I’m sure I will get my chance too, but until then I will keep busting my tail to get it done!

In the meantime, I can celebrate the victories of my boot camp buddies, including my friend Melissa who annihilated her February goal and rocked out the half yesterday in 2:14. (Her lofty time goal was 2:15- not too shabby!)  I finished only a couple minutes ahead of her and Adam (not surprisingly) smoked us both.  Our friend Jamie also ran with us and KILLED IT despite not feeling great while running.  It was such a great experience to race with all of them!!!

I hope everyone had an excellent weekend!!!

Why I Love (and sometimes hate) My Trainer

“Dedication and commitment are what transfer dreams into realities.”

-Unknown

I never thought I could afford to work with a trainer. ¬†I always thought it’d be really expensive. ¬†Then I joined boot camp and met the instructor Mike. ¬†Initially, I had my doubts. ¬†He seemed kind of angry and yelled a lot. ¬†That was before I got to know him. ¬†The truth is that Mike is one of the most dedicated and committed people I have ever met- and not just in terms of training (and, yes, he still yells a lot- but he’s also the first person to give you a high five fist bump and tell you when you’ve nailed it). ¬†He takes his role as a boot camp instructor and personal trainer very personally. ¬†He truly wants his clients to succeed, and is always willing to go that extra mile to make it happen.

Case in point, our boot camp class is supposed to be an hour long; however, it typically runs at least an extra 15 min if not longer. Why? Because Mike stays until everyone is finished. ¬†At boot camp we don’t finish when we are tired, we finish when we’re done (whether it’s late or not!). ¬†His group training sessions are no different. ¬†The last one Adam and I did ran almost an hour over (that’s double the length) and Mike did the whole workout with us (after his workout on the stair climber with a weighted vest…he still kicked our butts- hate him! jk). ¬†I have¬†personally¬†even seen him stay late to give someone that extra push to meet a goal when he stayed an extra hour after group one night to help a client conquer her fear of the tall box.

I am GOING TO OWN YOU EVIL PULL-UP BAR!!!

This past month, Mike made everyone at boot camp come up with a goal, which basically turned my 2012 goal of doing a pull-up into my February 2012 goal. ¬†The problem: my lats refuse to cooperate on this one! ¬†I bought a pull-up bar and hung it in the guest room door way (right by the bathroom, so I have to walk by it 50+ times a day) and have been doing negative pull-ups like it’s my job. ¬†So far, the only thing I have to show for it so far is some really sore muscles and the feeling that my shoulders are going to fall off. ¬†Meanwhile, everyone else has been annilating their goals. ¬†As ecstatic as I am for them, it’s making me feel like a total loser.

I know it’s not right to compare and that the part that really matters is I’m putting in a lot of effort. ¬†However, I’m someone who pushes myself to the limit on my own so having this deadline is only making me frustrated. ¬†Most of the time, I really appreciate Mike pushing me hard, but in this case I am pretty much hating him for it (not all the time…just when I look at that damn pull-up bar). ¬†While I am POSITIVE I will get to the point of doing a pull-up, I’m a little doubtful it’s going to happen in the next week- and THAT is going to make me feel like a total failure until I make it. ¬†The worst part is I just had an awesome run yesterday and I have knocked out 3 wks of Insanity, but all I can think about is that stupid pull-up! ¬†It’s going to be the bane of my existence until I get up there.

Of course, despite all my drama with the pull-ups I really do love training with Mike (and the rest of the boot camp crew!). ¬†They have really become a second family to me and have helped me grow as a person. ¬†When I first started boot camp and training with Mike I went into every workout anxious about whether I would make it through (despite being in shape enough to run over 15 miles). ¬†Over time I got to the point of approaching the workouts with the attitude of “I can get through this”. ¬†Now my attitude is always “BRING IT ON!”

Working out with Mike is always a challenge.  His boot camp classes have been tough enough to make Insanity seem easy in comparison.  Making it through his group sessions and boot camp have made me feel like I can truly conquer anything- including pull-ups!

I don’t know that I would have made to the point of being this tough (mentally and physically) if I had not signed up for that first month of boot camp. ¬†Running a marathon was a challenge, and it without a doubt changed my life. ¬†Yet, it doesn’t even begin to compare with what working out with Mike and my boot camp family has done for me. ¬†Running is a solitary sport- it’s just you and the distance you need to conquer. ¬†There’s no peers for support and no one to push you other than yourself. ¬†It’s great for building discipline and character, but it can only take you so far. ¬†Having the support of other people to push and motivate you is what makes the difference. ¬†It’s what makes a workout that would otherwise seem insurmountable seem doable. ¬†At the core of that workout support for me is Mike.

Today I started week 4 of Insanity…and did some more negative pull-ups. ¬†I’m not sure what the rest of the day has in store for me, but it might just include a run to the gym. ūüôā

Running, Llamas, and Too Much of a Good Thing

“Beautiful women are strong and powerful.

They are athletes, capable of every feat under the sun.

They have muscles borne of hard work and sweat.

They gauge their self-worth through accomplishments not by numbers on the scale.

They understand muscle weighs more than fat, and they love the fact that their designer jeans don‚Äôt fit over their well-developed quads¬†“

‚Äď Jon Gilson

(I love this quote!!! Borrowed from Fit and Feisty)

Yup, that pretty much sums it up!

So I haven’t posted in a little while because I took a little mini vacation for my B-day in the Green Mountains in Vermont for some relaxation. ¬†I found an awesome deal on Groupon to stay at the West Mountain Inn¬†for more than 50% off their regular price. ¬†ūüôā ¬†I was totally sold by all the pictures on their website of the amazing scenery and hiking trails… okay it was mostly the¬†LLAMAS!!! ¬†I love llamas!

llamas!!!

It was definitely worth the money and the drive. The food was AMAZING. ¬†In fact, told Adam I was going to get fat because their were always yummy fresh baked goods out. ¬†Luckily, I was able to control myself…

Despite the tranquil atmosphere, Adam and I still got a chance to get in a tough trail run (only 6+ miles, but the hills were so steep it felt like double that!)  I pretty much felt like I was going to die for the majority of it while Adam bounded upward like a damn gazelle.  Needless to say, I hated him.

I spent half the trip sick (again!) with sinus/cold symptoms, but after a day to recuperate at home I got back to Insanity and boot camp and have been getting my butt kicked! ¬†Thursday night Mike had us doing the beyond insane workout from the week before, but made it even more difficult by changing some of the exercises and making us do all the circuits straight through without rest at the end. ¬†I was happy to make it through without any palpitations or near fainting spells (I only almost threw up once!), but my body has been hurting everywhere ever since! ¬† I’m sure it didn’t help that yesterday I did Insanity and a group session where Mike had us doing 400 reps (split with a partner- my partner was AWESOME by the way)¬†of all different types of upper body torture including battle ropes, curls, dead lifts, punches, and some other fun stuff. ¬†We were definitely creating some liquid awesome!

We also did a mile run as part of our warm-up (outside, in the cold, in shorts…I hate you Mike ūüėČ ) and I finished in a respectable 6:54 (motivated primarily by the fact that I was COLD and wanted to get inside). ¬†Adam finished a full minute ahead of me, but his legs are twice as long as mine.

Nothing says "I love you" like a SUPER BLENDER

After our super tough workout, Adam and I treated¬†ourselves to some chocolate peanut butter protein shakes in the new industrial strength blender he got me for Valentine’s Day (because nothing says “I love you” like a blender with more horse power than your car…I told him the only thing that would make it better is if it came in pink or orange). ¬†In case anyone is wondering, I can now make a protein shake in 3 secs. Hardcore, right?

That pretty much catches us up to the present- with the exception of a Birthday recap, which I still need to post. ¬†I’ll get around to it…eventually.

I hope everyone is having an amazing weekend! ¬†I started mine off right with some more Insanity- that means 3 weeks down! ¬†I’m also hoping to get a long run in at some point to help prep for the Colchester Half Marathon next weekend (Yikes!!!) ¬†I’m a little nervous about my lack of training (in terms of not having run much recently), but I keep reminding myself that it won’t be as bad as a marathon.

Later folks!

PS. The torture was worth the great view ūüėČ

What a Difference A Year Makes!

“Happiness is not a matter of good fortune or worldly possessions. It’s a mental attitude. It comes from appreciating what we have, instead of being miserable about what we don’t have.

It’s so simple, yet so hard for the human mind to comprehend.”

-Bits and Pieces 

Today I turn 29. ¬†It’s officially the last year of my twenties. ¬†While many people (especially women) dread turning another year older, I find myself approaching the big 3-0 with the opposite sentiment. ¬†Why? Because life just keeps getting better, and I can’t to see what this next year has in store for me.

Originally, I had anticipated celebrating by going out today; but instead find myself just enjoying the morning at home. ¬†I don’t need any flash or glam today. ¬†I don’t need anything. ¬†It is the most wonderful feeling of contentment- something I don’t think I ever knew how to be until recently (especially sitting still). lol ¬†I guess some things get easier with age. ūüėČ

My Birthday card from my brother and his girlfriend. They know me so well.

I think a large part of how amazing today feels comes from how low things were a year ago (and the year before). ¬†I have had to rebuild my life from the ground up, and along the way I rebuilt myself. ¬†I am stronger, fitter, more self aware and self assured, and all around healthier. ¬†Life is good again. ¬†In fact, it’s better than ever. ¬†I’m better than ever. ¬†A year ago (even 6 months ago), I was still keeping people at arms length. ¬†Now, I can can finally let my guard down and allow people to see the real me.

Borrowed from my girl Kelly

I don’t worry about other people hurting me anymore because I am so much more confident and secure in who I am. ¬†I know I can take the best of what they can dish out. ¬†No person¬†is strong enough to break me.¬†I can handle life’s knocks. ¬†If I get knocked down, you can be sure I’ll get right back up. ¬†It’s going to take more than some harsh words or bumps in the road to break my stride at this point in my life.¬†I have a solid foundation now. ¬†I have a tight support system, and an army of people who LOVE and ACCEPT me FOR ME.

I opened my heart to the world again, and got it completely filled in return. I am SO BLESSED to have as many wonderful people in my life as I do- and I truly appreciate each and every one! ¬†My phone has been ringing off the hook all morning with Facebook alerts and birthday well wishes. ¬†It’s overwhelming at times just how much love and support I have in my life now. ¬†I never thought I would have so many genuine friendships. ¬†The thought of spending time with a lot of people used to exhaust me (or incite anxiety), however, now I’m often impressed at just how easy it is to maintain a great number of relationships when they are healthy and genuine.

All of the hurt, anxiety, and misery I endured makes everything about life so much sweeter now. ¬†I wouldn’t wish what I went through on anyone, but I also wouldn’t change it. ¬†It made me who I am today. ¬†It brought me to where I am- and I like where I’m at. ¬†29 is going to be a great year for me because I’m determined to live it up. ¬†I am going into my thirties with a bang!

Happiness comes from developing a healthy relationship with yourself. Like any relationship, it takes work. ¬†There will be ups and downs. ¬†There will be times when you will be fed up; but at the end of the day it’ll be worth it. ¬†I have made a commitment to be happy. ¬†No one can do it for me. ¬†I make a conscious effort at it everyday. ¬†Today, that effort will include my next Insanity workout and spending time with the people who matter most to me. ūüôā

Dig Deeper!

“If you always put limit on everything you do- physical or anything else- it will spread into your work and into your life. There are no limits. There are only plateaus, and you must not stay there. You must go beyond them.”

-Bruce Lee

Amen!

Oh yeah, I pulled out the Bruce Lee today. ¬†Maybe I was inspired by my new self defense lessons. ¬†Speaking of which, maybe I’ll start adding a self defense move of the week you tube video with my posts so everyone can learn how to kick ass with me… ¬†

Today I worked my second 13 + hr shift this week and came home exhausted (saving lives is hard work ūüėČ ) ¬†I considered going straight to bed, but decided to “dig deeper” and do my scheduled Insanity workout instead. ¬†On the agenda today: pure cardio and abs. ¬†I did the abs first because I didn’t realize initially that they were separate workouts. ¬† Anyway, the ab workout was only an additional 15ish minutes, so even combined with the full cardio workout, it was not as bad or long as boot camp. ¬†Tomorrow is supposed to be a rest day, but since I’m a couple days behind I think I’m going to skip ahead to the fit test and possibly the next workout.

Plus, TOMORROW IS BOOT CAMP ūüôā YEA!!!!!! ¬†Can you tell I’m REALLY looking forward to it? ¬†Is it still sadistic to look forward to torture and pain when you know it’s good for you? ¬†In reality, it’s not really boot camp I get excited about- it’s SURVIVING another boot camp and the associated post workout high (not to mention hanging out with my awesome “other family”!) ¬†

So here’s to rising above plateaus, digging deeper,¬†and being the person you are meant to be!

In the words of Caption Planet :The Power is Yours!"

So, for anyone interested… here is one of the useful moves Adam taught me called the “Rolling Knee Bar” (or “How to Break the Bad Guy’s Knee”). ¬†Enjoy!

Conquering Fear and Establishing Goals

“Inaction breeds doubt and fear. Action breeds confidence and courage. If you want to conquer fear, do not sit home and think about it. Go out and get busy.”

-Dale Carnegie

Lots of stuff going on recently. ¬†Where to start…

Friday I was totally stoked to fit a group training session in with Mike and a bunch of awesome boot camp peeps.  Because it was all people from boot camp and not his regular clients, he pushed us extra hard (HELL YES! BRING IT ON!).  I was initially relieved that it was primarily upper body because my legs were shot.  Once we got started, though, I realized my arms were also useless (I think Insanity may be catching up with me). lol  Nonetheless, it was an AWESOME workout.  We were all DYING.  The warm up consisted of over 10 minutes on the stairclimber (Mike style- no holding on allowed!) for Adam and I.  Everyone else had to run a mile; I wanted to trade.  The rest consisted of stations various types of upper body torture mixed with lunges and box jumps.  The first round was 1 min at each station, then 1:15 for round 2, and 1:30 for round 3.

And box jumps! No more medium box for us!

It was the first workout that I felt like I really conquered the evil tall box! ¬†Normally, I end up staring at it more time than jumping on it because- let’s face it- that thing is almost at my waste. However, this time I destroyed that box! ¬†(That’s right box! I owned you!!!) On our last 1:30 min set, I got up 19 times despite interference from all the guys rudely trying to get into their locker room behind me. ¬†Even more exciting, Kelly (the superwoman and blogger I’ve mentioned in my previous posts) finally conquered her fear of the tall box- despite getting bit a few times– and got up on it for her first time!!!!! We all knew she could do it, and now she does too! ¬†It was personal victories all around as another member of our group had successfully completed her first nonstop mile. ¬†Of course, that just how we roll at boot camp- smashing barriers everyday.

After our workout, I shared with Mike my new goal of doing a pull-up, and he quickly pulled over a box and showed me how to do an exercise to “wake up” my lats. ¬†Basically, I used to box to jump and then pull myself into the pull-up position. ¬†Once up, I had to resist coming back down to recruit the proper muscle groups. ¬†I already practiced some more today and am super pumped about potentially being one of only a few women at the gym able to one unassisted. ūüôā

In other exciting news, Adam has started teaching me how to properly throw a punch in addition to some self defense techniques. ¬†Being such a tiny person, you never know when skills (or should I say “skillz“) like that may come in handy. ¬†It’s something I have been wanting to for a while, and now I just happen to know an instructor (and Marine trained “deadly weapon”). Plus, being a woman (and domestic abuse survivor) it’s certainly something I’d encourage to feel empowered. ¬†Who knows, maybe by the end of this I’ll be Marine Corps tough.

Why Boot camp and Decongestants Don’t Mix…

“If you are hurt, whether in mind or body, don’t nurse your bruises.

Get up and light-heartedly, courageously, good temperedly get ready for the next encounter

This is the only way to take life‚ÄĚ

‚Äď Emily Post

Ok so this post is a little late.¬† Normally I don’t post twice in the same day, but this workout was entirely blog-post-worthy (and I found a bunch of great pics to use). lol

Wednesday night I went to boot camp (yes after my Insanity workout that morning-despite being sick).  I knew it would be a tough workout, but figured I could muddle through it.  I HAD NO IDEA WHAT I WAS IN FOR!  I keep telling Mike that the Insanity workouts are not as hard as boot camp.  Apparently he got the signals crossed and decided boot camp was too easy.  He KILLED US.

unless you pass out, then you're screwed...

Now, let me tell you why boot camp and decongestants don’t mix.¬† I have been taking pseudoephed (possibly pharmacy’s greatest gift to mankind) for the past few days in an attempt to relieve the intense pressure in my sinuses and help fight this God-forsaken bug.¬† What I didn’t realize prior to heading to our session, was that Mike had beyond insane (because let’s face it, Insanity isn’t that hard) interval training in mind.¬† The problem: the point of interval training is to adequately recover in between.¬† That means getting your heart rate down.¬† Side effects of pseudoephedrine: tachycardia, palpitations, dizziness, and blurry vision (ie. boot camp and decongestants don’t mix).

I can’t tell you exactly what exercises we did (because it’s sort of a dizzy, fuzzy blur!).¬† The warm up was pretty much the same as Insanity.¬† As for the rest, all I can say is there was a lot of jumping, punching, and push-ups involved.¬† There was also a lot of yelling to “PUSH HARDER!!!“.¬† I kept my eyes closed for most of it in a desperate effort to stop the room from spinning.¬† Every time Mike told me to move faster and “run it out” and wanted you yell “Are you serious?! This IS as fast as I can go right now! I’m happy to still be upright!”¬† It was honestly the closest I’ve come to passing out since the first session.¬† Someone actually threw up (I think a first while I’ve been there), and a few people had to stop at various points.¬† I think there would have probably been a lot of swearing and complaining if any of us had breath to spare.

I could feel my heart pounding in my chest, and it wasn’t in a good way.¬† When I did fleetingly open my eyes to glance around the room, it pretty much looked like a bunch of zombies.¬† Mike asked how I was liking the workout, and I told him I couldn’t wait to get back to my “easy Insanity workout”.¬† It was true.¬† His workout made Insanity look like kindergarten recess.¬† Every time I tried to move faster, I would get dizzy and have palpitations.¬† There were a couple points when I was really sorry I came (especially being sick), but by the time it was finally over I snapped out of it.¬† After all, I was happy to at least be suffering in good company. ūüôā

¬†After that crazy workout, I took a day off from exercise and went to bed early last night instead.¬† I definitely needed that extra rest.¬† This morning I was back to my Insanity workout, and tonight I’m hoping to make a group session at the gym with Mike where I will be getting my sexy face on with some fabulous ladies- because there’s nothing sexier than a girl who knows her way around the weight room.

PS. Anyone looking for a little daily inspiration, here a a few of my new favorite Facebook sites.¬† They all have great inspirational photos and great tips on living a fit/healthy lifestyle.¬† If anyone has any other sites or blogs they recommend, I’d love to hear about them.

Kendrick Fitness

ShaBAM Fitness

Fit and Fiesty

The Optimism Revolution

Healthy Body Project

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Have an amazing day everyone!!!!!