Frustration is a Four Letter Word

“The way I see it, if you want the rainbow, you gotta put up with the rain.”

Dolly Parton

You can take away my exercise, but you'll never take away my sense of humor!

Update: there has been no improvement in the shoulder since Friday.  It hasn’t been excruciating, but it hasn’t been normal either.  Yesterday I figured I would do some bike and stairmaster at the gym (since there’s not a whole lot I can do that doesn’t affect it).  As it turns out, recumbent bike would have been a better choice. Today make neck and shoulder are bugging me big time.  The thing is, I intentionally was leaning on my right shoulder so as not to put any strain on the left, and it didn’t matter one iota.

So now I find myself in the position of not being able to get comfortable- in spite of the NSAIDS and muscle relaxants.  I had my first official break down this morning.  It was short lived (yes there were tears), but the truth is I have had it.  There is clearly nothing I can do NOT to aggravate my shoulder- even sleeping makes it worse.  I haven’t run, done boot camp, climbed, or done Insanity in what seems like forever, and I don’t feel like it’s made one bit of difference.  At this point, there’s little to no chance of being able to do the Tough Mudder or Chesire Half, and I am beyond frustrated.

What irritates me the most is how completely unhelpful the ortho doctor I saw was.  He didn’t appear interested in anything I had to say and seemed completely annoyed that I came to see him instead of a general practicioner.  However, I knew if I went to my PCP he was going to have to send me for xrays and to follow up with an ortho guy anyway- so why not get it all done at once?  The best part was how he told me how physical therapy works really well, but is a huge time commitment and then never even gave me the option of going.

Given that we are now on week 3 of this issue with no real signs of improvement, I am ready to change things up.  I found a sports medicine center that specializes in chiropractic medicine, physical therapy, and acupuncture.  The doctor there also happens to be a certified personal trainer who avidly does crossfit, so I’m sort of hoping if anyone will get where I’m coming from it’s him.  I called and left a message with the office today to see if they 1)take my insurance, and 2) can fit me in anytime soon.

I am keeping my fingers crossed that I can find someone who is willing to listen and can actually help.  I get that I am not some important super athlete, but it doesn’t make being injured and unable to train any less devastating to me.  I want to be out there giving it my best as much as any professional or olympic athlete regardless of my lack of talent. 😉  What I need is someone who understands that and can give me a better timeline and guidelines on what I can and cannot do.

Here’s to being hopeful!